So I have a problem. Fear of success I think it is. My novel is complete, ready to be prepared for publication. There’s no reason I couldn’t throw it up on Amazon as an e-book next week. But I find myself procrastinating. As much as I want to write, there is a part of me, equally as large — perhaps larger — that doesn’t want to. After everything I’ve done, I’m scared to take that last step. Actually publish it. I don’t really know why, but I am.
So I have conceived the idea of serializing my novel on one of those amateur writer websites, Wattpad or Jukepop or such, as an intermediate step between … nothing … and fully, publicly publishing.. It’s complete, so I would be able to upload chapters rapidly, and maintain interest among the readership. I’ve long since given up any idea of earning a living by writing. I just want people to read what I write. On one of these sites, I could get some feedback, have some interaction with the reading public, maybe get over some of my fear. Gain some experience, however half-assed, at publishing and being in the public eye.
What would be better would be for me to bite the bullet, and just publish it. But for whatever reason, I can’t bring myself to do this right now. So, going the website route—would this be a productive recognition of my limitations and an attempt to work within them, or a bullshit, craven move that is really just procrastinating?